November 22, 2008
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Take this one on….
Yeah…i could scream right now. Im stagnant. Im really, really stagnant. Ive gotten lazy. Ive become content. Ive become complacent. And what am i doing to fix it? I dont know. I dont know that i will ever know. Work wise im fine….im getting promoted here very soon again, passed a board. Work ethic is still thriving. But…its the “after the facts” that im dead on. No, im not talking about bills and such…trust me, im welllllll ahead in that game. So what am i talking about? *laughs* i really dont know. But i know that feeling this way sucks. You know, i think its because of my many days of reflecting on things that have come to pass that i feel this way. Or maybe its just me being retarded. I dont know. I dont……know. AH!!! i just thought of something. I felt this same way when i was in Korea. Noone to relate to with my beliefs, no way to escape without knowing that it is their “job” and “obligation” to serve others spiritually. Absolutely no passion…they do it because they have to. I absolutely refuse to go through that again….i refuse.
Salaam
Comments (1)
I don’t know if you feel as it is an obligation or not, but I want you to know if you do, that it is not an obligation. It is a calling Kristopher Bernard. You have been called to do this, and you will reap the benefits if you keep serving the way God intends you to. I share your beliefs, and I’m always here for you to talk to. If I’m not online, I’m on SMS, and if I’m busy I’ll reply as soon as I can. I can’t tell you whats missing because I don’t know, but I’m sure face time will help you find out, and it’ll help you fill whatever is missing too. Stick in there, and you’ll be just fine honey. I believe in you, and I know you’re up for great things. I miss you, and I hope to talk to you soon. Sorry about the other night, I go booted.