July 21, 2008

• So…here I am again. Staring through the same window ive been looking through for the majority of my life. The song Simple Man puts it into words for me….”Take your time, Dont live too fast..” “All that you need now, is in your soul, and you can do this, if you try…all that i want for you my son, is to be satisfied…and be a simple kind of man, and be something you love and understand.” “dont you worry, youll find yourself, follow your heart, and nothing else….you can do this, if you tried…just be a simple kind of man.” Do i live a simple life? Do i follow my heart, and have i found myself? No…no not at all. I can figure anyone out that i meet within days…even minutes. But who is the hardest person for me to read? Myself. I dont understand myself at all. My biggest fear is never understanding the way i have been knitted…the way i have been made. Ive been looking my whole life for this answer…and ive yet to find it. Im happy with my life and where i am going and what i am doing….but im so unhappy with it all just the same. Do i hope for something that isnt there? Or do i already know the answer, and im not happy with it? Regardless of the answer…its driving me insane….literally insane. I cant find myself, and i hate it. How can i be so found…yet be so lost at the same time? Im not looking for an answer anymore…i just want my life back. Im tired of looking…i just want it back.

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